these 50 question were presented to me via a woman that i just can't stop thinking about. in order to impress her and tell her more about myself, I have decided to answer them. My answers probably won't be NEARLY as long as hers... still... I will answer them to the best of my ability.
How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
-- You know, it's strange. I've been told by several people that i look like I'm in my 30's. These same people tell me that I act like I'm in my early 20's. I'm 26. If I were to look in a mirror and never interact with anyone, i would think i was 32. If I were to base this solely off my interactions with people, I would say 23. If i were to go off my leadership skills, I would say 47.
Which is worse, failing or never trying?
--Who is the happier man, he who has braved the storm of life and lived or he who has stayed securely on shore and merely existed? Always try, or you won't know why you failed.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
--Fear and familiarity. We find something we like and we keep doing it because it becomes familiar. We know there's something we might like, but it's not familiar, and we fear the unfamiliar. So it never gets done.
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
--Sadly, I fear the answer is yes. I've been many places and done many things. I've taken life, I've loved, I've hated, I've built, and I've destroyed. But if I were to die today, what would I leave behind but memories?
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
--Religion. We pretty much have a hold of it now. Be free to worship or not worship whoever you want. But part of changing the world is also changing it's history. a thousand years ago, believing in one thing meant not believing in another or not living... it really set us back a few thousand years.
If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
-- High School English Teacher
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
-- I believe in what I'm doing.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
--I would have masters, a house, and a child. I wouldn't have played a single video game and i would have published at least four books by now.
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
-- until lately, not a lot. but in the past year, 80% of it has been controlled by me.
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
--doing things right. If it's done correctly, I don't mind stepping on a few toes.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
--If they're three people I respect, then they obviously respect me. Meaning they would expect nothing less than a vigorous defense of someone I care for. I will get angry and tell them to stop. i will explain that he/she is my friend and, even though they have a full right to have whatever opinion they wish about whoever, I will not hesitate to slash their tires if they continue to speak poorly of him/her... with all do respect, of course.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
--Study. dear god, study.
Would you break the law to save a loved one?
-- I have and will again.
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
-- i don't think so.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
-- Well perhaps not most people, but at least most people I know... I get what i want. And not that whole spoiled brat aspect. But... if I see something that I feel should happen... something I want to happen... I will make sure it happens. If anyone knew this, it would be Jenny. She's seen me make sure a club that was near and dear to everyone's hearts didn't go under. She saw me settle disputes that i believed were wrong solely because I didn't want people to start hissy fitting. She saw me make sure the people we NEEDED were elected into positions when people who were dating the current officers thought it was a sure bet for them. And she saw me not stop until i made her smile every day. I work for things I want. Harder than anyone I've ever seen.
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
-- because how boring would that be?
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
-- I have not been to japan. financial issues. and no passport.
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
-- if anyone were to answer this question "no." they'd be lying.
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
-- state: texas. it's home.
-- country: japan. sushi.
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
-- no and no.
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
-- worried genius. they make more money.
Why are you, you?
-- because i don't want to be who I was anymore.
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
-- no. but thats because... who would want themselves as a best friend? Why would i want to befriend somebody that's already done and seen everything i've done and seen. he has all the favorites i have and all the likes and dislikes. he treats everyone exactly like me. what the hell is he bringing to the relationship that isn't already there?
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
-- losing touch.
What are you most grateful for?
-- the respect i'm given. people may not like me, but they listen to me and they take what i say to heart. and that's special.
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
-- lose all my old memories. all they do is cause headaches anyway.
Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
-- I remember talkingg about this.
Has your greatest fear ever come true?
-- not yet.
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
-- not at all.
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
-- the first time i held my baby sister the day she was born. It's my favorite memory and i wouldn't give it up for anything.
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
-- I'm not sure i would know... probably the day i got out of the army... but I can't be sure.
If not now, then when?
-- well, obviously later.
If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
-- almost every monday through thursday.
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
-- Honestly, when was the last time you can remember a religion starting a war. lately, its politics.
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
-- i have no job. so hey... bonus.
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
-- more work.
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
-- no. but i feel like i've had this headache a hundred times before.
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
-- I would max out everything and grab Jenny and bigger and I'd call abby and tell her to go to dads... I'd put jenny and bigger on a plane with me and we'd go to my fathers. I would spend every waking moment with all four.
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
-- famous. yes.
What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
-- a big one. truly living means happiness. Love. hate. being alive... well everyone is alive. but who is living? Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
-- that time started yesterday.
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
-- jail? death?
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
-- probably nothing.
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
-- just now. thanks a lot asshole.
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
-- i love being someone people can rely on.
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
-- probably not. well actually... yesterday was... pretty momentous. so yeah.
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
-- i'm making them. and i am so very happy with they way they're ending up.